rejoicing in the hands

Devendra Banhart - The Body Breaks

The body breaks and the body is fine
I'm open to yours and I'm open to mine
The body aches and that ache takes it time
But you'll get over yours and I'll get over mine
And the sun will shine
And the moon will rise
The body calls
Yeah the body it calls out
It whispers at first but it ends with a shout
The body burns
Yeah the body burns strong
Until mine is with yours
Then mine will burn on
My flesh sings out
It sings come put me out
The body sways like the wind on a swing
A bridge through a hoop
Or a lake through a ring
The body stays and then the body moves on
And I'd really rather not dwell on when yours will be gone
But within the dark
There is a shine
One tiny spark
That's yours and mine

I'm in kind of a wonky mood right now.  I'm stressing out about my exam tomorrow in Early Brit Lit. *sigh*  I feel like I am not going to get an A in this class...which I guess is OK but I am really a perfectionist; however, ironically, my downfall is I am an extreme procrastinator. And then I don't focus. I drive myself crazy and it's my fault.  

Every time I wait until the last minute to do a paper it is only "OK"  (Usually B+ average on those).  My thoughts are jumbled and my arguments lack focus.  bleehhhhhhh  

Rote memorization is not one of my strong suits. Maybe if it was multiple choice, or matching, or something where I can see all of my options...but just taking lines from poems that don't even have names [!] and trying to identify [!]

White whine...

Plus I am sick.  Plus the weather is gloomy.  Plus it is almost 1 in the morning...

I just [...]

blah-dy sunday

so i quit smoking again. for the third time. bleh. it is so annoying to go through this crankiness every time. i turn into such a raging B and i don't even want to be around myself.  i need to avoid any contact with anyone who is smoking because i have zero willpower.  if it wasn't for david not letting me steal his cigarette from him last night i would have already failed :(  so i guess that's good. *sigh*

i saw transformers 3 last night. *zzzzzzzzzzzzz* wish i could have that time and money back. of course i fell asleep, but not until after laughing at the first 30 minutes and the premise that JFK ordered the moon landing after we discovered autobots or decepticons or whatever on the moon. so stupid.

i have one of my "midterm" exams for one of my summer classes. i keep forgetting how much i hate preparing for these exams. i would rather have a multiple choice test, or if we could just answer one or two of these questions..but six.  and we have to have 6 - 12 pages typed up. wahhhh.  but then i guess i would be complaining about it if it were the other way around, so i guess i should just be grateful.

welp, this is 4th of july weekend. next weekend i might go to a craft open house, then the weekend after going out for one of my bff's birthday to a night club (i sound so old saying that), then the following weekend driving up the coast, and then finally the weekend after that is my birthday!  GOD WILLING!

xo

jury duty

Right now I am at the Compton Courthouse in the juror waiting room, awaiting instructions as to whether I will be selected to go to a courtroom and be selected for jury duty or if I will be dismissed and go home. Either way, I don't really care. I'm supposed to be working on my essay for Hamlet, but I let every little thing distract me.

Even though I am on my own laptop, I am being blocked from Facebook and Twitter, which I don't think is fair :(

I'm listening to my music blasting full force in my headphones so I am unaware if my typing is getting on my neighbors' nerves, but in actuality I don't care :)

Sometimes it feels nice not to care.

currently listening to: elliott smith - st ides heaven

xo

repetition

i can't make anyone care.

intro post

I first had the idea to start this blog about 5 years ago. It was going to be about weird crap celebrities do.

Then I got side tracked, got a new job, went back to school, got ANOTHER job, took more classes, worked other side jobs, started another blog, and my life just blew up and got ridiculously busy.
But I'm going to *attempt* to keep a blog, because I really love writing. And I would really like to journal personally and not try to relate to everyone all the time ;)
Besides, this way I get to use all the emoticons I want!
Anyway...here's the beginning. Yet another blog. For me.
xo