rejoicing in the hands

Devendra Banhart - The Body Breaks

The body breaks and the body is fine
I'm open to yours and I'm open to mine
The body aches and that ache takes it time
But you'll get over yours and I'll get over mine
And the sun will shine
And the moon will rise
The body calls
Yeah the body it calls out
It whispers at first but it ends with a shout
The body burns
Yeah the body burns strong
Until mine is with yours
Then mine will burn on
My flesh sings out
It sings come put me out
The body sways like the wind on a swing
A bridge through a hoop
Or a lake through a ring
The body stays and then the body moves on
And I'd really rather not dwell on when yours will be gone
But within the dark
There is a shine
One tiny spark
That's yours and mine

I'm in kind of a wonky mood right now.  I'm stressing out about my exam tomorrow in Early Brit Lit. *sigh*  I feel like I am not going to get an A in this class...which I guess is OK but I am really a perfectionist; however, ironically, my downfall is I am an extreme procrastinator. And then I don't focus. I drive myself crazy and it's my fault.  

Every time I wait until the last minute to do a paper it is only "OK"  (Usually B+ average on those).  My thoughts are jumbled and my arguments lack focus.  bleehhhhhhh  

Rote memorization is not one of my strong suits. Maybe if it was multiple choice, or matching, or something where I can see all of my options...but just taking lines from poems that don't even have names [!] and trying to identify [!]

White whine...

Plus I am sick.  Plus the weather is gloomy.  Plus it is almost 1 in the morning...

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2 month check!

whoopsie, 2 months since i've last blogged here.  well, i can thank the summer for that ;)  i had a wonderful month off of school...which, coincidentally, started again last monday.  and i just checked and i only have like...2 (3-ish) classes until it is time to transfer!  time flies by so fast!  i thought i was going to be here forever -_- but seriously if i had gone back full time to begin with i could have transferred about a semester and a half ago...but the most important part i suppose is that i went back in the first place

i digress

summer is almost over. nooo!!!  i didn't finish any full stories, but i have so many new ideas for stories that i am keeping under wraps until it is time for me to write.  it feels so good ^_^

all of my favorite shows are almost back in season!  i gave up on Secret Life but have replaced it with an even more AMAZING show called 'the lying game'

the story is so interesting and the writing is NOTCHES above Secret Life. I am in love with whoever the wardrobe person is for this show. on the last episode, "Emma" (who is pretending to be her twin sister "Sutton") was wearing the most ADORABLE lace/eyelet shorts  - (middle outfit)

just lovely!

well...i hope it won't be another 2 months before i update this blog again. i have been busy keeping up with 2brokeLAgirls and trying to squeeze as much fun into my life as possible. it is so lovely to be happy :)

xo

blah-dy sunday

so i quit smoking again. for the third time. bleh. it is so annoying to go through this crankiness every time. i turn into such a raging B and i don't even want to be around myself.  i need to avoid any contact with anyone who is smoking because i have zero willpower.  if it wasn't for david not letting me steal his cigarette from him last night i would have already failed :(  so i guess that's good. *sigh*

i saw transformers 3 last night. *zzzzzzzzzzzzz* wish i could have that time and money back. of course i fell asleep, but not until after laughing at the first 30 minutes and the premise that JFK ordered the moon landing after we discovered autobots or decepticons or whatever on the moon. so stupid.

i have one of my "midterm" exams for one of my summer classes. i keep forgetting how much i hate preparing for these exams. i would rather have a multiple choice test, or if we could just answer one or two of these questions..but six.  and we have to have 6 - 12 pages typed up. wahhhh.  but then i guess i would be complaining about it if it were the other way around, so i guess i should just be grateful.

welp, this is 4th of july weekend. next weekend i might go to a craft open house, then the weekend after going out for one of my bff's birthday to a night club (i sound so old saying that), then the following weekend driving up the coast, and then finally the weekend after that is my birthday!  GOD WILLING!

xo

cooking and stuff

I am determined to break the recipe rut and try as many new things as possible now that I have the time.  I just discovered Rancho Gordo beans, and I am trying to convince David that we need to buy these beans.  Why?  Because everyone I know who has bought beans from RG swears that they have totally changed the way they cook. Pretty radical.  We've always wanted to transition from less meat more beans, and I think if we actually buy good beans instead of stale store beans, then we can actually do it.  I never thought I would write the word "beans" so many times in one blog post.

Next on my agenda in breaking my recipe rut is to grow my own herbs. I hate that the herbs I buy go to waste because I don't use too many fresh herbs in my recipes. I pretty much rely on the fresh veggies, olive oil, and a little bit of salt and a lot of pepper to flavor my meals. My favorite ingredient is garlic. This is weird, but I love the way my hands smell after I chop garlic. *snnnnnnnnnifffffff*  smells gooooood ;)

But anyway back to the garden - This blog entry was my motivation in wanting to plant my own herb garden. Even though she wanted to do stacked succulents, the inspiration came from none other than *drumroll* Martha Stewart. Gosh, she has an answer for everything, doesn't she!

Here are some recipes that look pretty yummy:
*Cannellini with Tomato & Sage
*Fresh Shell Bean Soup
*Tuscan Bean Soup

So, yep...I am all about the musical fruit right now. We'll see how this little project goes.

xo

new (old) poetry

Do you know what is really hard?  Tracking down authors, sometimes, that are featured in literary journals. I am in LOVE with this poem, and it's really rare that I find "new poetry" that catches my attention.  I was just going through some journals I'm considering submitting to, and stumbled across the poem which is now my favorite poem of the moment.  It's called "Lesson on the Letter S" by poet Jaimee Hills and it was published in Blackbird:

S is for sin. I knew what we were in for.
How could we exist without an exit?

He called me his apostrophe, a she, his little rib.
What soul? What self? I wanted to be singular.

In the beginning, there was light, but it was slight,
a soft wan-colored swan, a shallow lake to slake

our thirsty throats, an often hallow place. But a slow hiss
announced itself. The windswept willows wept.

At thirty, my possessive ex and I were fruitful,
peaking naked, multiplied our sex. But soon,

his low snaked tongue, in speaking, forked
our sour sons, our daughter and myself with words

of swords and I returned, both cursed and cured,
ears seared with newfound knowledge,

turned our laughter into slaughter.

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I love it.  Too bad I can't email her to tell her [!]

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Right now I am working on a short story that started as a journal exercise in my creative writing class. I just don't know how to end it. I've always had a problem with endings. I don't like my characters to stop moving. But I can't write out their whole lives I suppose.


If there is someone out there in the world who wants to help me, please let me know!  I am open to honest, constructive criticism. I'm a big girl. Sometimes.

NTS: Learn how to watermark in MS word.

ok, that's all I wanted to share for now. BYEEEE.

xo

you are an animal

I saw Jenny & Johnny tonight at the Music Box (Henry Fonda Theater). Of course they were AHHH-MAZING! My favorite performances were "The Next Messiah," "Big Wave," and "Silver Lining."  But all of the songs were really bumpin.  There have been a lot of upgrades/renovations since the last time I saw a show at the music box. There are little booths now on the GA Floor, lots of Hollywood Regency-meets Alice in Wonderland-meets black paint furnishings, and little embellishments here and there. Black glam shabby chic. I was a little nervous coming in because I asked my friend to smuggle in a flask since she brought a big purse, and the security was rifling through her purse so hardxcore I thought we were gonna get thrown out before ever stepping foot inside!  We're too old for that nonsense :P

Now I am home watching movies on my DVR I recorded from TCM, drinking some Coke Zero & Jack Daniels, and waiting for my homies to make their moves on Words with Friends. I am the ultimate dork.  But I don't care. This is how I roll on a Saturday night!

I have one week off before Hawaii, then summer school! I'm scared!

xo